Day 13

Youll notice I did not do an update yesterday. I also did not work out, I stayed at home with my family and watched movies. Sue me. =) I ate a South Beach Diet meal, Southwest Chicken with 240 calories, and 2.5 sodas (140calories each).


Today I feel like:



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Thoughts and Feelings:

Today was an alright day. Started out a bit crazy, but only in my head. I have a lot going through it right now, and today was my first class of Spring Semester! (it was a P.E. class.... Step Aerobics!!). That class was SO much fun!! All we did today was learn the beginning step movements, and .. i already feel it. haha. Its gonna be great. Its 2x a week! Yippee... No "ifs, ands, or buts" about it!! Anyways, im going to give a review of the South Beach Diet meals. They are the BEST thing ive had in a while! Seriously! They taste amazing, and they ALMOST fill me up, but it keeps me feeling that way for a while (all i ate yesterday). Ive had the Southwest chicken and the ceaser chicken... everything tastes so good! The Southwest was 240 calories and the ceasar was only 230. I think they have a larger collection, i might be calling the commissary to request they carry more of it. YUM!

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What I ate today:
Cereal.............................130calories
Milk for cereal................75calories
South Beach Ceasar.....230calories
South Beach Sthwest..240calories
2 k2o protein water.........60calories
1 soda............................140calories
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875 Calories for Day 13.


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NEW WEIGHT:

190.00

(jfc will I EVER hit the 80's!?)

Day 11

Today I feel:


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Thoughts and Feelings:
1:00pm--I feel the same today, as I did yesterday. In fact, I dont want to work out today either. But, I have a conscience. I feel like I'll hate myself if I dont. -very true- Its pretty cold outside. but theres a slight chance I might walk the 2 miles again with Anthony. Going to the gym is pretty much out of the question, but I'm thinking about it. Anthony absolutely hates that play area, and knows how to open the door and is constantly trying. When Decateur goes to the gym with me, he plays with him, so that hes occupied. (he really deserves "husband of the year" award.) Im thinking I might go, and try to run on the treadmill, even if its just 30 minutes. But, today is Sunday, and they close early. And I can imagine that the gym might be full today b/c of that, and on account its a weekend. (Dont you love how I make excuse after excuse?).

Anyways. Ill update later.

8pm- nope didnt do anything today, and it felt damn good. I got some things figured out, and Im hopeing that was the reason for my sluggishness, and so hopefully i can re-start things out with a bang tomorrow.

Congrats to Amber, losing so much weight!
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What Ive eaten today:

2 fat free jellos...................20calories
3 chicken...........................110calories
2tbsp honey mustard......130calories
2soda.................................280calories
Chicken parm, viola........360calories
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900 calories

Day 10

Today I feel like:



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Today I just "didnt care". I keep stepping on the scale, and its hasnt moved. WEll, it moves, just not where I want it to. Im so dissapointed. Why the sudden stop? Im doing everything I was before! I worked today. Counted my steps, 3,151. Thats 1.57 miles. So, I decided to stay indoors, and not do anything as far as fitness goes. Yes.. i did it out of spite for my dumb body, who LOVES my fat (i guess). But, whatever. Whats one day? -Dont answer that-

Anyways, Im obviously not feeling spunky. Ive got a lot going on in my head, and its been very hard to deal with. Be happy I havent gave in completely, alright!

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What I ate today:

2 peices of bread ......................150calories
6 slices of ham............................70calories
tbsp mayo....................................36calories
3 fat free jellos............................30calories
spaghetti noodles......................190calories
spaghetti sauce............................50calories
2 sodas.......................................280calories
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806 Calories for Day 10

Day 9

Today I feel:



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Thoughts and Feelings:

Today, my brain is clogged. Im thinking about too many OTHER people, like I always do. Its tiring you know. But instead of go into it, ill just shut up, and let you know how my day went. I layed on the couch until after Anthony's nap. Then I wanted a soda (another one, b/c i had one for lunch - and only that) so I put Anthony in his stroller... and went for a walk. Thank God it was a nice day out today. Slightly windy, but it was warm, and sunny. We walked and played for an hour. I walked the perimeter of Chavez... the walk behind the houses. I took 4,110 steps, which was 3.28 km and 2 miles. We stopped 2x to play for a short bit, and went along our way. It was refreshing. Then we went to eat with Decateur. And now I'm home. I didnt have many calories today, and so im using that walk as my exercise today.

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What I ate today:

2 sodas.......................140calories
salad greens................20calories
dressing.....................120calories
cheese........................100calories
chicken.......................110calories
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630calories

Day 8

Today I feel like:




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No, I havent given up, but today just wasnt a good day at all. My scale should be thrown out the window.. my weight is starting to fluctuate like it used to, and its pissing me off. I got on the scale this morning (mind you, last night laying in bed, I was giggling to Decateur that, if my weight drops again, I might be in the 180's this morning....) and it said 193.

How disappointing. I know, that even with it being that... JEEZ... even if I had only lost 2lbs, I'm still on target for my goal, goal date. But... on target is never enough for Kayla. Im not on target enough to be 135lbs tomorrow... im not interested anymore. (...just my thought, again, I didnt give up).

Again, today wasnt a good day. I did work, but man I wanted to call in again. I hate my job... (just today, lol). I hate working period. Why cant I sit my fat ass on the couch, eat potato chips and drink soda all day, and not gain anything? I hate metabolism. Mine croaked a while ago.. and I hate it even more now.

Speaking of work, guess what I found in an empty room today... BUTTERFINGERS. =___( Im so pissed I had to give them away. A whole yummy bag of the bite size ones, the ones you dont bite into, you just shove the whole things in your mouth and chew the huge yummy mess... ugh, my mouth salivates as I describe it. I didnt tell you, but Day 1, I found a whole, unopened box of Hot Cocoa with Marshmellows..... (if you know anything about me, you know I drank 2 whole boxes during the 3-4 days around Christmas....). This must be a sign.

Anyways, I went to the gym, after I said I wasnt going to. (I really didnt want to), and I did the treadmill for about 12 minutes... ran and walked. (ran more than walked... very proud of myself for that actually...) only went 1 friggen mile (not so proud of myself for that. When I was in basic, I did 2 miles in about the time I did 1 today.. sooooo.. yeah, Im pretty out of shape). But I bounced back after running quickly, I heard thats a good thing (heard that from the trainer on DietTribe on Lifetime). I then went to another room and did like 15 situps... then we were bombarded by 4-5 "tough guys" doing situps with the weight ball on the backwards sit up thingy. (lol)... so we just left the room, b/c we had Anthony in there, and I didnt want to bother them. I went to the sauna for 10 minutes afterwards, and then we left. Im here now, about to watch more nip/tuck (getting caught up on season 5), and gonna drink another soda.... my love.

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What I ate today:

2 slices of bread................................150calories
6slices of ham.....................................70calories
mayo....................................................36calories
100calorie pack chips......................100calories
3chicken strips, no skin,baked......110calories
2tbsp honey mustard.....................130calories
broccoli in butter.............................51calories
2 YUMMY sodas............................140calories
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927calories

Day 7

www.my-calorie-counter.com The webs free Food Diary

Today I feel like:


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Thoughts and feelings:

Yup, I'm worn the *F* out! Today I had more calories than I have I think in a while, but were watching Nip/Tuck tonight, so I'm GOING to reward myself with a soda... so, yes, add 140 calories more! (I had an extra 268 calories b/c of Decateur, he whined and whined to go to sonic, and I said I didn't want anything, and so he orders a regular size blast, and keeps giving me bites?? What kind of support is that? And well, I couldn't be rude and refuse, right? lol). Anyways, I got my books for Spring Semester today, and it reminded me of the extra calories I'll be burning going to class on tuesdays and thursdays in Step Aerobics (1 hour class). Should kick my butt, right? Other than that, I didnt do much.

Oh, I did step on the scale this morning and it said ............... 191.5!!

Im thinking we wont ever eat tacos again, b/c that was another reason I had higher calories today (and they werent that great... and there were only 2 in my calorie restriction!!). Tonight we went to the gym for an hour. I actually took initiative and ran half a track (1 lap is .25 miles) two times (with a break in between of course!) on my own! I did a total of .5 miles. And then I had to wait a few minutes for my shin to ease down. For the past 2 days, my right shin-muscle has been cramping while running.. almost feels like a charlie horse! Its the worse pain ever, that you cant just move into another position (like other charlie horses), you just have to wait it out. Then I got on the KoKo machine again (told you I loved this thing! lol) and I did the 30 minute weight loss work out (yesterday the machine wasnt working right so thats why I just played on it, today it worked beautifully). I burned 205 calories on it in the 30 minutes (its a smart trainer, and it gives you all the stats afterwards, as well as makes your range of motion during an exercise more leveled out, rather racing through it because your tired). I was really working myself hard on this.. I was even grunting!! lol

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What I've eaten today:

2 slices of bread ..........................150calories
6 slices of ham ..............................70calories
1tbsp mayonnaise .........................36calores
.5 Sonic blast, oreo.....................268calories
Elpaso Taco Box-prepared.......350calories
cheese, 1/4cup ...........................100calories
Sour cream 2 tbsp ......................60calories
2 Coca cola classic can..............280calories
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1,314 calories on Day 7

Cannon's Biggest Loser

Anyone interested in doing this with me? The guy said I get a group of 4 people, and before the begin date (JAN 12) we go up there and get weighed and taped/measured and then you compete weekly to see what group lost the most weight (at least this is how I interpreted what he said), the end date is FEB 20th. You get prizes at the end! I guess they give things away like mp3 players and such.. which I have an Ipod, but seriously, if others are competing with me to lose weight, and that means they gotta know how good I'm doing (or not doing), isnt that motivation enough? I dont want to fail in front of a bunch of people... kwim?

So... I haven't asked anyone, but I'm pretty sure no one I know is interested (if I'm wrong, PLEASE let me know), so if your interested.. let me know!! (obviously, you gotta be here, Cannon AFB, NM)!

Day 6

Today I feel:



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Thoughts and Feelings:

Today was a pretty alright day! I woke up with a tummy ache (so of course, called into work, lol) and hopped my butt onto the scale and.. BAM.......................... 193!

Have I said how in love I am with Acai? lol

Anyways, I bought more work-out apparel to sort of reward my self and I can also use it as a form of motivation (duh, their cute!). Decateur spent most of his day working on a neighbors car, while I was tending to Anthony and his growing attitude. We went out for fast food for lunch (Long John Silver's), but if you see my calorie intake, I did some decent choices... (I also didnt eat breakfast, so...). Decateur and Anthony had some chinese orange chicken for dinner while I had some grilled chicken with broccoli! YUM. Then, we went to the gym. I returned a call from my dad on the way there, and he really made me happy... complete support, like all others have been, but it really meant something coming from my dad. Hes always been the one that says looks are everything, and he just left from a visit, so you can imagine how horrible I felt.. since my looks suck right now. But, he even started crying saying "...all You ever do is help others and now its Your time to shine... You deserve this!". It felt great to hear. And, I spent close to two hours at the gym because of it. I ran (yes, ran..) for 30 min (yes, had lots of breaks, but thats not the point), and then I played some more on the KoKo machine. I think I used every attachment.. lol.

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What I ate today:

Long John Silver's; Fish-Battered (1 peice)........... 260calories
Long John Silver's; Hushpuppies (2)...................... 120calories
Long John Silver's; Large Pepsi............................... 280calories
3 Chicken strips (skinless, boneless)-grilled......... 110calories
1 7oz bag steamed broccoli in garlic butter.............. 51calories
1 can coca cola classic ................................................ 140calories
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961calories

Day 5

Today I feel like:


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11:00am
Why? Well, remember a few days ago, I weighed myself and it said 3lbs lighter than my starting weight and I said I was skeptical? I was skeptical b/c all my life, I've never had a set weight, it would fluctuate so many lbs a day. But remember I said I hadn't remembered my weight doing that recently, it just did it maybe a pound of a difference (199-200), which kind of scared me? lol. But, I jumped on the scale last night, and it said again, 196, so I accepted it finally in my head. I got on there this morning, since I'm weighing every other day (just for my own personal pleasure) and guess what it said....


I stepped on and off that damn thing like 8-10 times and it said the same thing, each time. So, maybe its true. Maybe I really am losing weight? Heck, either way, I am really getting excited about the whole thing. I mean, heck, my FITDAY profile said don't make your weight loss goal where you have to lose more than 2lbs a week, and my goal says I have to lose 2.5lbs a week... and here, I lost 5 in 5 days?!

Now, don't get me wrong. I am not ignorant, and I do realize that with a sudden change in eating style, that a lot of people will lose a bunch of weight asap and then it will slow down and become work. But thats never been me. Ive always tried diets, and never get past week 1 because I'm not seeing any results. As some would also say is normal... its a slow process... .So... why? Why am I losing so much so fast?! I'm not doing weight training yet, havent been to the gym.. only been walking and its only been 2 out of the 4 days I've been doing this! My mind is baffled... I keep trying to find the perfect answer to this riddle, but I don't really want to know. If its really happening, I just pray it continues to happen and that I don't just give up if it slows down.

So, today, Decateur is at work, so I am going to imagine that I am alone tonight again. Its not confirmed, but I have a few small reasons to believe this, and I am OK with it. I am only OK with it, b/c I know I can do this, and I really want it. I want it so bad, I ... *insert ingenious end of sentence here*! lol.

So, possibly just a walk tonight, (and possibly one after lunch too). But I'll let you know when I update later. =)

Update: 9:12pm
I didn't go out for a walk, at all today, instead I went to the gym w/Anthony for about an hour. I walked about the speed I usually do, on the treadmill and then played on the KoKo machine for a bit... but realistically didn't get anywhere with it (not what I would call anywhere, that is), I was just getting used to the machine. Im really glad they put it in there! Anyways, thats all I did. =)

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What I've Eaten Today:

3/4cup Cereal, Honey Bunches of Oats w/Almonds ........130calories
.5 cup whole milk......................................................................75calories

Day 4

Today I feel:



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Well, today was an ok day. I went to work today, and work was kind of sucky, but I held my head up high for most of it. We went grocery shopping and I thought I was going to have a melt down. I was hoping that the things we already eat (never changes), was semi within my calorie intake limit, but I started seeing higher numbers and, freaked out a bit. Decateur came to the rescue and finished the shopping, and I just said I'd eat whatever he put in the cart, but he better know me well enough... lol. He did fine. I think we almost got what we normally do, aside from that the commissary was out of chicken?!?!? lol. Whatever, I think thats about the time I started to freak, like "omg, do we eat anything else?!". But its all alright for now. I hope at least. We had spaghetti tonight, and although I didnt stuff myself like I usually do when I eat spaghetti, it was so delish and did fill me up pretty good. Not sure if you noticed, but Ive been having a soda a day, (1). Yes, I know... blah blah blah. Its better than 6-8 right?!?!? We were going to go to the gym tonight (we, as in: Decateur and I with Anthony), but once we got there, remembered that it was Sunday, and they closed early. so we got home and I had a super idea to go walking, whole family, right? Well, we got to the end of the road, and turned around since its 23 degrees outside!! Thats just TOO cold. Even though I'm sure Anthony would have been fine (all he had visible, were his eyes, lol), it was just too cold for us, since we didnt dress too warmly since we thought we would be hot once we got walking. lol. So, at least I worked today and burned a few calories from that! I thought of doing some things here at home, but changed my mind quickly when I felt the 75 degree heat wave walking through the front door. And if you want to see a real bitch (not just the semi-bitch without soda...) you make me get hot, in a hot room! lol

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What I've Eaten Today:

Cinnamon Toast Crunch Cereal ...........................130calories
Milk.............................................................................75calories
15 Sour Cream and Onion Pringles .......................75calories
Pasta (spaghetti).....................................................190calories
Sauce (spaghetti)......................................................80calories
Garlic Bread (spaghetti)........................................120calories
2 Can Soda ...............................................................140calories
Chicken Salad with tomatoes and other.............350calories
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1,300 calories for Day 4

Day 3

Today I feel like:



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Thoughts and Feelings:

I'm excited and very proud of myself. Like yesterdays post, I was alone tonight. But worse, I didnt have Decateur here with me, so I was ALONE ALONE. lol. But instead of saying no to myself, I told myself I had no choice. I think b/c I felt horrible for not doing anything last night, I felt like I HAD to tonight. Which it was good. Very good. I walked for the same amount of time as I did the first day (1 hour) but I must have went a lot faster b/c my legs were JELLO when I came home, and I went double what we did the first night. So, I'm pretty proud of myself. *insert pat on back photo here <<<--- couldn't find anything self explainatory online*

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What I've eaten today:

2 servings of Cinnamon Toast Crunch cereal........ 260calories
.5 cup of milk .................................................................75calories
1 can coca cola classic .................................................140calories
3 fajitas - prepared .....................................................495calories
2tbsp sour cream (for fajitas) .....................................60calories
.5cup colby jack cheese (for fajitas) ..........................217calories
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1,247calories
also had 1 oz Acai Berry Juice this morning
and 1 oz Acai Berry Juice after running

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Current Weight
196 lbs
(LOST: 3lbs) <--- of course, I fluctuate in weight so much everyday, usually. But the past month or so, I've stayed at 199-200. And then today -3? So I'm kind of happy, but at the same time skeptical. Nevertheless, I'm sure thats why they only weigh a person weekly or so? But I will do it everyother day, just b/c its some kind of cruel and unusual (and painfully pleasurable) thing to stand on the scale for me. lol. (yes, Im weird.)

ALSO, not sure if I've let you know, I am also updating everything like my weight and food intake and calories on www.fitday.com.

My personal fitday page is: Kayla's Fitday

Day 2

Today I feel:



6:48pm: So far, today has been alright. I went to work (housekeeping) and worked from 8:30-4pm (and worked my ass off... like usual) and then came home and ate dinner, and I just hear that my workout buddy wont be going tonight for personal emergency reasons... So, I might just go for a walk again tonight with Decateur, but I'm unsure. I hate doing things alone, and its not just something ill push through, id give up, before I did anything. I had Decateur buy me some Acai Berry Juice today... it has 30,000 mg per OZ!! I take 2 oz a day (one in morning, one in evening, but I took one when I got home from work... tastes like poo, as expected). It was $45.00 for 32 oz, so this better work!!So... ill update later to let you know what I've done.

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What I ate today:

3/4 cup Cinnamon Toast Crunch Cereal ...... 130calories
1/2 cup milk .........................................................75calories
Lean Cusine Pizza .............................................360calories
Parmesan Chicken (1/2 breast) .....................298calories
2 servings Steamed Broccoli ..........................102calories
4oz Coca cola .......................................................50calories

Day 1

Day 1.

This is what I feel like:


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Thoughts & Feelings:

What a great way to bring in the new blog, aye? Well, its true. I really feel like crap, but it nothing "sick-wise", just my mind trying to blow itself up with anxiety and nervousness. "Today's the Day" keeps running through my head. I CANT TAKE THE PRESSURE!! lol. In fact, I hate the pressure. My mind doesn't function well, if my life isn't completely organized. Actually, its weird. I don't have to follow the "organization" to be o.k., I just have to make a million calendars with the "what-ifs" and the "what times", throw over half of them away, tuck the rest, and I'm good. But I get a brain block. I start to think about what my days will be like, and what they will contain, and I get stuck when I go over my max amount... one. Its sad really.
This is whats blowing my mind. My husbands schedule. That damned thing that prevents me from doing what I want, when I want. So I have to think of that first, b/c the military doesn't care if their soldier's wife wants to lose weight. Then I have to think of how the SPRING SEMESTER 2009 is starting in a few weeks (My first class is on Tues. Jan 13) and thats in the evening. I also have to think about how I HAVE A JOB NOW... (I know, wow, huh? lol) and I work on all of the days Decateur is off (every other day, if you didn't know) till 4pm. So, I have a few small windows when all that crap hits the fan, to join Amber at the gym. OH, plus, I DO have to eat, lol, WHEN WILL THAT HAPPEN? Man, I love food.

Hows that for a Rambling Insanity of NOTHINGNESS?

Anyways, I'm a little freaked out about this weight loss. I am kind of motivated today, but today it really hit hard, whats about to happen. Up until today, I was SUPER PUMPED (as I stated on myspace). But now I see all these "set backs" (which I'm 100% positive is just my mind trying to make me give up), and I get nervous. I put myself down, saying that its not going to work anyways, so why try.

BUT NO FEAR.. I will try. And I will keep trying.


Edit: 9pm
Me and Amber did NOT go to the gym today because it closed early (losers, don't they know about new years resolutions?!), so instead, we fought the windy cold, and walked for ALMOST an hour (50 min)... pretty briskly (my shins hurt...). I'm feeling a lot better now than I was earlier. I figured it was the soda that was bringing me down today (or lack of), so when I went to eat w/ Decateur, I had a small cup of it, (took the headache and nausea away!).

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What I've Eaten Today:

3/4 Cup Cereal.............120 calories
1/2 Cup Milk .................75 calories
6 fl oz coca cola..............75 calories <<<< I am quitting, I had to have a little to ease the nausea
I cup shredded chz.......433 calories
1.5 tbsp Sour Cream......90 calories
3 Fajitas-prepared.......495 calories
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1,288 calories on Day 1

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Numbers:

Current Weight:
199lbs.

BMI (calculator):
34.15

Goal weight:
135lbs by July 01, 2009
(25 weeks and 6 days)

Stats:
I have 64lbs to lose
thats 2.48lbs per week
.35lbs per day

Calorie Restriction:
1,238 per day

OPERATION: SKINNY 09 Intro

Hello all! This blog is going to be about my "New Life's Resolution" (as stolen directly from Amber's blog), WEIGHT LOSS. I will share with you a lot of different things, in this blog. Things that I might not want to even share with my, Decateur. But I made a pact to myself, that I would get these things off my chest. I got this idea from Amber and HER BLOG. I ask that you DO NOT judge me, I DO have feelings, and this IS going to be hard for me (my journey that is, not the blogging). Maybe I will give you motivation, and maybe you can leave a comment and give me some too. Heck, maybe you'll start a blog about it too!

Anyways, Ill share with you what I ate, drank and how many calories I've consumed; How I'm feeling today; What my thoughts and fears are; what Amber and I did for our work out and how bad it sucked (or maybe I'll like it, lol); and possibly even photos and the DANGEROUS numbers so you can compare. (Compliments are a form of motivation, just so you know...).

Well, HERES TO YEAR 2009! Wish us luck!